WHEN I’M SILENT….

WHEN I’M SILENT….

Motherhood can be quite exigent, but I will do it over and over again.

There are the fun days, there are the busy days, there are days when I have so many palpitations that I think my heart will burst open. There are times that I scream and yell so much, but it seems it all falls on deaf ears, while I hold back tears of frustration.

Many times before I fall asleep, I run the day’s activities with the girls through.

I smile, remembering all their silly jokes and funny acts. At times when I feel I was a bit hard on them, I ask God to forgive me and help me to be more patient with them.

Some nights while they sleep, I anoint them and speak the things I want to see over their lives.

Other nights, I just stay up watching how beautiful they look while sleeping. I pull their cheeks and give them kisses. 

When I’m overwhelmed with emotions, I write them notes, and leave it right by their bedside knowing how much they appreciate such…

When I allow my imaginations surf, I think about how life would be by the time they are teenagers. I can’t help but nurse a little fear on if anything might change.

While at it, I promise myself to be the best mum to them. I just want to love my girls to the point where they can share the good, bad and ugly with me.

I want to be part of their growing up process. I don’t want to wake up, and realize they are suddenly all grown.

We are consciously creating for them an environment where they can grow up with very healthy self esteem. 

In the interim, I note their daily milestones, learn their strengths and weaknesses, while deliberately working on my relationship with them. I enjoy every minute spent together.  It’s not always easy, but realizing how important it is, I make out the time.

Motherhood is a beautiful experience I would never trade for all the gold in this world.

I love my daughters.

I love my husband, deeply….

WE GOT DAD TO MARRY DAD!

WE GOT DAD TO MARRY DAD!

History will judge us by the difference we make in the everyday lives of children. Nelson Mandela

It was already past bedtime. I had had a long day, hubby was out of town and l really couldn’t wait to put the girls to sleep. I thought to quickly read through the Bible story for the night, pray with them and also get some sleep.
In the course of our study, of course there is always room for contributions and questions.

Then she asked “mummy, why were the animals made to go in male and female, not male and male, or female and female?” We were reading about Noah and the ark.
I was excited about my 6 year old’s question, it was an intelligent one asked with all innocence.
I took my time and explained to their understanding how God created the family system to be. I explained in their language that reproduction and marriage is meant to be among opposite sex and not same sex.
Just like you and daddy she added. Yes I said as we concluded our quiet time and called it a night.

A few days after that conversation, as I sat reading, same time watching one of their cartoons with them,(Bluey to be specific) a scene came up.
It looked truly innocent. As the dogs played, they got their uncle to marry their dad and went further to create a wedding ceremony. In Bluey’s words, “we got dad to marry dad”. While one could simply laugh about it, I was piqued. I am too detailed to miss the message.
What audacity! What a way to sow the seed of same sex marriage into the minds of these kids.
Because I had already explained how unacceptable that is before God to the kids, I was quick to make reference to that teaching and also remark on how very wrong and bad that particular dog play was. They understood.

One thing I have come to understand is that these kids have deep questions in their hearts. Probably built from conversations they might have overheard or something they might have watched or read about. We constantly need to engage them in conversations and also make them comfortable to ask all the questions on their minds. I will not shush or hush their questions which might sound inappropriate or silly. That way creating enough confidence and trust in me.
The enemy is set to destroy these little ones. What we do with time spent with them, determines how negative or positive they turn out.
In Abigail Van Buren’s words, “ If you want your children to turn out well, spend twice as much time with them and half as much money”.

Money is important, but more important are the lives of these children.

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